Do You Ever Need a Break from it All?

I haven’t posted anything for more than a month, which has never happened since I started this blog, almost three years ago.

I was away from blogging.

Twitter.

Instagram.

Any social media, really.

And I feel like I should explain.

At first I thought it was all justified.

That I didn’t have time because I just moved out.

Because I had so much work.

Too much work.

And not enough air in my lungs.

But then I realized I was making up excuses.

I was avoiding my posts.

My writing.

My life.

I was diving headfirst into decorating my flat, and working, and gardening, and oh my god anything really.

I was taking every tiny little thing that got in the way and gave it my entire attention, glad to have an excuse not to show up on social medias.

Why?

I wasn’t completely sure until a few days ago, really.

Not because I was busy.

Or lazy.

Or ill.

I was just scared.

I can’t believe I’m writing this.

I’m rarely this honest online.

A small, stupid fear grew into my brain like a goddamn spiderweb.

Fear of people judging, I guess.

Of people not even caring.

How clichΓ©.

That fear is an old friend.

It wasn’t the first time it knocked on my door.

But it was the first time I opened the door so freaking wide and gave it all my keys.

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It’s gone now.

Kinda.

Who are we kidding?

Does it ever really go away?

I don’t think so.

We just get better at hiding it.

Breathing through it.

Do you ever feel that way?

Do you ever need a break from it all?

I’d like to know.

Anyway.

Just thought I should explain why I wasn’t around.

But I’m back for good now!

AND I CAN’T WAIT TO CATCH UP ON EVERYONE’S POSTS.

AND I’VE GOT LOADS OF PROJECTS I’M REALLY EXCITED ABOUT.

AND I CAN’T WAIT TO SHARE THEM WITH Y’ALL.


Audrey out.

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      1. Well you have faced your fear in the virtual world…….and maybe now its not so scary πŸ™‚ I think that there so much to fear in the outside world, its nice to come somewhere, that is really safe…..just for a few hours a day πŸ™‚

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  1. I know that feeling of delaying posts and not wanting to write. The fear of being judged is the hardest and it never gets better. πŸ™‚ But don’t let it guide you. I think the WP community is pretty amazing! I’m going pass on advise I got from a blogger, “whatever you do, don’t stop writing!”

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  2. Yes. Yes. Yes.
    I need a break sometimes, too. A lot of times, actually. You have excellent reasons to not want to blog, actually. Uhh the fact that someone is judging your work and it might not be positive is so, so discouraging. I get it. I don’t even know why I sometimes go on abrupt hiatuses for my blog. I mean, yes, I’m busy with school and exams and classes and lifeβ„’ in general but I also don’t FEEL like blogging. I don’t feel like scrounging up the energy to start working on a post, edit it, write about books. But you know what? It’s okay. I feel like shit sometimes because I’m abandoning this little nerdy bubble I’ve created for myself but if I’m constantly creating content and pressuring myself to keep at it, then I’m not going to keep on enjoying it. It becomes more of a responsibility, a burden rather than an escape, fun. What I’m trying to say is, it’s more than okay to take a decent break. Hell, don’t even apologise for it, just come back with a bang(!) and make more awesome content! And I guess the fear of being judged never really goes away but it’s something you just need to crush on your way. Take your time.
    Also, I loved this free form writing you just did.
    It was cool.
    Bye.

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    1. YES. Exactly, the moment it stops being something you enjoy you should definitely take a break. Same for me, I started taking this whole thing a little too seriously when really it should be a fun escape like you say. (I think stats make me a little obsessed hahah I just love stats SO MUCH THERE’S LIKE A MAP AND A CHART AND OMG MY NERDY BRAIN IS ECSTATIC.)
      I decided (five minutes ago) that now when I don’t want to write a blog post it’s probably a hint that it would probably be boring to read anyway, and I should find a fun new way to write so that I enjoy writing it and people might like reading it more.
      And thanks πŸ™‚
      Peace out.

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  3. I rarely post on Facebook now – sometimes I’ll share photos from events, but I used to post status updates like once every other day. Now I may have a status update like once a month, if that? I had whittled down my FB friends to less than 50 more than a year ago and I felt that no one really cared. My blogging I guess has also decreased a bit lately.

    I’m glad that you’re back and I always look forward to your blogs. I finally have a few minutes to catch up on blogs building up in my email inbox lol, so I better get reading now! πŸ™‚

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    1. Yeah, same for me FB I go there less and less and I rarely post anything. I prefer to talk about what’s up in my life in person with my friends.

      Haha take your time, there’s no rush! I’m always so glad to hear from you πŸ™‚

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